Its also really really easy for me to associate songs and other artists lyrics with how I feel about someone or something. I've never really understood why but the second I hear certain parts in songs they open up a whole part of me for a person. The scariest thing to me is that I can be completely comtrolled my music. An ex of mine completely understood that and felt the same way. and at the beginning of our relationship that was a good thing because he would play songs in the car that he knew would make me fell special and important to him but by the end of our relationship... I was hearing songs about just letting go and saying goodbye and how I will never be good enough.. It was excruciating. I never ever want to go through that again. I felt so broken and unwanted and un-needed. There are so many things that will remind me of him.. "Last Kiss" by Taylor Swift is actually coming through the speakers of the computer as I type right now. thats why this blog entry turned into being about my ex.. this song reminds me of our relationship so much..
Alright well, I guess I will probably blog later, or right now but about something else...
Holllaaahh<3
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