Oh God.

I love it here. 

Friends. Family. That 70s Show.

It's not that I miss the past, I guess I just hope the future is just as good. 

   Things have changed so much lately. I've been thinking about those I've let go, the people I make a conscience choice not to talk to, or be part of their lives. It's hard. How are you supposed to distinguish the good guys from the bad these days. I mean even your best friends of years can have an ugly side. A different side. A side that, in the end, screws you over, turns the tables, makes you the one that's alone, when all you were in the first place was a back up.

    I guess I'm just hurt. I had friends, or I thought I did. But in the end everyone from this town turns out the same. I don't know, maybe I don't like it because I've talked myself into not liking it. But the fact of the matter (yes, I just said that) is that I everyone I meet from here treats not only me, but mostly everyone, including their family and closest friends, like craaaaap. 

    It's just not my thing anymore to cater to everyone's needs, try to make everyone happy, or do what anyone wants me to do. Hell, I don't even want to leave the house unless I have to. It's just too much effort, to get nothing in return. I'm not saying I want anything monetary, worth any physical value, just a thank you. Or something like that. Idk. Whatevaaa. I'll find people who I can call true friends someday. 

Oh This Should Be Fun.

So! With all of the downtime coming my way, I think I'm going to start writing in here more often. I'm kind of out of practice with my blogging but HEY, its not like anyone actually reads this anyways so I can say pretty much whatever I want. HA! I crack myself up.

   So I'm kind of ecstatic. I have the next four days off. I was supposed to go to freak night but wellll, Tori's a broke joke. We'll, not really, I just have more important things to spend money on, and way better things to do with my time. Lol, like sit on the couch and watch Walking Dead with Miles :) it's lovely. Work the last few days has been intense, so busy! I don't know if I've mentioned this before but I'm not working at Dutch anymore, I work at Roasters now. It's another coffee shop, but it's local. Don't think that I moved down in the world though. Yes, I left a multi-million dollar company for a local, less structured company but we learn so much more about the product were using, how the beans are roasted, where they're from, what ratio of what countries beans are in our house espresso blend . We learnt things that, working at Dutch, I would have never learned. We make latte art (see pictures below. I made those!), and really learn our customers, names, faces, kids, cars, jobs, pretty much their life. We have 4 stores (Richland, Kennewick and two in Pasco) and we just bought out another coffee shop here in the Tri, so we'll be moving on over to West Richland before the end of the year, woohoo! My boss is awesome, his name is Wes, he's the owner and founder of Roasters, his wife, Shannon, is crazy cool too. They both just have such a great mindset and are truly resilient people.   

     [re·sil·ient

        riˈzilyənt/

           adjective (of a substance of object) 

              Being able to recoil or spring back into shape after bending, stretching or being compressed.]

It's a lot like "falling down 9 times, getting up 10." Being able to stand on your own two feet after dealing with stress, and let me tell you, if you thought you've been stressed, you should hear what these two have been through the past few years. Looking at the people who they are today and the company that they've created, you'd never even know though. 

                   

I really do apologize for being a TERRRIBLE blogger, but living is more important to me than recording my life so we'll say the excuse is that I was busy. Or we could say I didn't have a computer, caaaause I didn't, and now I do. Kinda.
  I bought the iPad mini two days ago, it's beauti-mus. I love it. It's kinds like my phone, but bigger and better with no phone. I feel like a could easily become one of those Apple fiends. Who owns, like, EVERYTHING Apple. I like  Apple because their products look so sleek and everything is so user friendly and easy. And cause they're prettttyyy:) sorry I'm such a girl sometimes. But it's true!! 

                    

Yeah, maybe not. That looks expensive. $$$$$. Haha. 

Anyway, i guess it is only like 10 AM and I've been siting outside writing this for like 2 hours now, oops. 

[Dont judge, I kept getting distracted] so I'll wrap it up for now. I'll probably write again today just cause I'm obsessed with this iPad. Hehe :) 

<3 

The SHORT version...

So theres this boy.... and I love him more than I ever thought it was possible to love someone. Seriously. It's like almost ridiculous. He puts up with all of my weirdness, and stupid stories, and random late night texts... but, he also lives 1034 miles away. One. Thousand. Thirty. Four. Miles. 

We met (for the second time as he likes to say) on February 18th of last year. I was hanging out with my friends Brooke Travis and Allie Delp & we were trying to figure out what th;e hell we were going to do that night. Well, I got a text from this kid, Blake asking me what I was doing and about a half an hour later the girls and I were headed to the Albertsons parking lot to meet him and a few friends in the parking lot and follow them up to Blake's aunts house that he was house sitting. I got out of the car and instantly noticed the boy walking in toward the driveway in front of me. I must've "noticed" a bit too long because Brooke made some smartass remark about it. Anywhoo we hung around Blakes aunts house that night and played random drinking games for a couple hours. This boy and I started talking and kind of jokingly flirting back and forth, he was making fun of me for uhm... knowing.. a friend of his. A while later I noticed he was sitting in the living room playing Cut the Rope on his friends phone. Now, not to toot my own horn or anything but, I may or may not be a damn STUD at that game, and I knew it'd give me a reason to talk to him, so i took a deep breath waltzed my happy ass over to the living room, plopped down on the floor right next to him and schooled his ass in some cut the rope action;) As we were sitting there talking I specifically remember, we were petting Blakes aunts dog, and both terrified, our pinkys touched. He slowing grabbed mine and I looked at him. In that moment, looking directly at him and just watching the way he talked and moved and idk... worked, I was hooked. . It was fascinating to me, he was fascinating to me...  how after one night of meeting someone I was so entranced by who they are, what they are interested in, how they spend their time & I instantly wanted to know everything there was to know about this boy. So of course, I made some silly comment about how we had to hang out more so he'd have to text me (which by the way he made me text him first) 

We talked over the next couple weeks, constantly && when I say constantly, I mean, CON-STANT-LY. It was ridiculous. Within a week, he knew more about me and seemed honestly interested in things I had to say, and things i did more than anyone had ever been throughout my entire life. We talked about food, and movies, and how absolutely amazing each other were. I truly believe it was in this week of not even seeing, touching or physically talking to each other ONCE that I knew he was different. The following weekend we hung out at my house, (well, we started at his house but when I mentioned my mom wasn't home and we would all be alone, we ended out at my house) my mom was at her boyfriends house and him, his friend, and my friend Brooke all came here to watch a movie & hang out. Let me telll you, I cant remember one thing about that movie, what it was called, who was in it, anything. It wasnt my focus that night.. I guess you could say I had uhm, something (or someone) else on my mind:) We went upstairs in my room so I could show him something (that also SOOOOMEHOW slips my mind), and as I turned to walk out the door to walk back downstairs he said my name. I turned around and BAM, Best First Kiss Of My Whole Entire Life. <33 

"Riley, Did you know this was going to happen when you came here" 

"Nope, I just hoped" 

The next few weeks we hung out every day. When we werent hanging out, we were talking, or texting or something. I was addicted..... I was happy. The happiest I'd ever known. He helped me through a couple pretty hard times and I found myself being able to tell this boy anything, things that I thought I would never be able to tell anyone. Things that I'd never wanted anyone to know. And the strangest thing to me was that he listened... he genuinely cared about what I was saying. :)

I can honestly say we were inseparable for the next month and a half, I'd stay the night at his house and he'd take me home, allll the way in Richland before he went to school. Oh the things this boy did for me :) 
He went New York rightttt before my birthday. I remember saying bye the night before he left, making him promise to text me and send me lots of cool pictures && giving him shit about being gone during my birthday. Thats when he told me that when he got back he was going to take me on a date... a real. live. date. 

Well, you seeeee, I had never been on a date before... and let me tell you, the second he said "date" I was probably the most excited girl, in the whole entire world.  

 Of course, you already know, we texted the WHOLE time he was gone. I even watched the basketball game he went to on TV just so I could MAYBE catch a glimpse of his perfect curly hair (Which I did, byyyy the way!) 

When he came back we went on our date. We went to this place called Monterossas (yes I know, I desperately need spell check, bite me!)  I was soooo nervous I could barely eat. It was EASILY the most romantic thing, ever. Something that will forever be absolutely impossible to erase from the depths of my mind. 

As we were wrapping up dinner, he ever so nonchalantly asked, "How much do you think the check is for?" (He always finds a way to bring out the competitive side of me) and of course we made bets on how much it was. (I was the winner, ps). When the check came, I opened it up and my mouth dropped. Like hit the floor. Inside the book, was a piece of paper that said, "Prom?" 

God I love that boy. Sorry, getting carried away. ANYWAY. I freaked out. Hands down best most surprised, happy, perfect, wonderful way I'd ever been asked to a dance. Hands down best damn moment. AHHHH! <33333 Of course, I said yes, but that comes later in the story. 

That night I went back to his house with him and we were laying in his bed just talking, he was making fun of me because I apparently used him because I loved his family. 

"No, I love you"

I honestly hadnt even meant to, or tried to say it at all. We both got kind of serious and he asked me what I'd just said. Of course, i giggled and said, Nothing! Of course, he finally got it out of me. Even though he knew the whole time, I think he just liked hearing me say it;) He then replied with. "I love you too" 

Now, I've said I love you to a boy before, but I'd never really meant it to anyone but my mother and brother before this moment. We laid in bed talkiing and giggling for the rest of the night. That night he also asked me to officially be his girlfiriend. I don't think I've ever had a more proud moment, than laying next to him just after that, knowing that I was his girlfriend. Riley Holt Hayfield's girlfriend.  

So, maybe we did things a little backwards, starting with falling for each other, winding our way through the twists and turns of love and ending with officially being together, but I love it.  To me, things that aren't always stereotypically perfect, make them more than just perfect. It makes them real. Unfortunately, in the beginning of July I was a dumbass and fucked up, but what doesnt kill us makes us stronger, and I believe that goes for relationships to.. and obviously neither of us are dead because we just spent the last three hours talking on phone and skyping each other talking about the past...present...and future<33

Music can change your whole life...

I...watched... THE... cutest movie tonight....

Riley texted me last night after I got off and told me that I had to watch this movie so I was going to but I fell asleep about 10 minutes in, so i decided to watch it again. Just now actually. It's called Listen To Your Heart. Now I'm not going to spoil it for you and waste my time giving you a full blown review of how good this movie is, because cutting into the acting and the camera movements, it wasnt the best, BUT the story line and a couple of the actors made this movie incredible. Its about a guy who falls in love with a deaf girl, and its SOOO cute. Theres quite the twist about 40 minutes in that there is just no way to prepare for. It's....epic? Idk, its an extremely cute movie though... and they do mine and Rileys, iloveyou thing, which makes it all the more worth watching. Anywhooo, soo the hour is an hour and forty minutes long... and guess how long I cried for? Not like sniffle.....sniffle....tear.. type of cryin, were talking like straight sobbing and talking to the TV kind of crying. I cried for about an hour straight cause of the damn story line of this movie. 

Watch it. Right Meow. <3

Snowboarding.....

Ow. Had fun at Bluewood. Ow. Terra ate shit coming around this one turn at the top of the mountain and it made my whole day, cause it was soo cute. I think I really like her. That is all.

DAAAAAAYYYY OFFFFF!!!!

T.G.I.F!!!!!!!!

I had a day off today && I'm going snowboarding tomorrowww!! Wooop Wooooop!! :)

Went to the mall today with Dad, Terra, and Sam. Dad is going to help me buy my IPhone when mom gets paid next Friday! Wooooop Wooooop!! I'm prettty stoked, in case you cant tell. Then I can use that FaceTime thing to talk to Riley:) Yaaaay!! He bought Sam an IPod Touch too.. figures. hah. 

After the mall I called Brooke and we went to Evans again to hang out with the boys, minus Tanner and Lucas. They all got SUPER hammered cause they decided to chug an entire 1/2 gal of Fireball. (BLECCCHHH) and I had to drive them home at like 1:00 cause I didnt trust any of them driving.  So Momma Tori saved the say and drove allll over! 

OMFG! I forgot to tell you! I got my very first ever flat tire today! I was driving through Dutch Brothers at like 7 with Jesslyn, and all of a sudden we just hear this God awful noise, turns out, its my tire! So we pulled into a parking spot where Matt and Lamar came to save the day. But they didnt have the right stuff to save the day. One of the customers who always comes through Justin, (16oz. Americano with sugarfree white chocolate and sugarfree hazlenut with a splash of cream) came through and told me he would run home and get the right stuff to change my tire with. So finally almost two hours after the initial tire popping incident, Justin took off my flat tire and replaced it with my spare tire, all the while reminding me 84 times not to go over like 40 mph on my spare and to take it to Les Schwab tomorrow. 

Wellll, I'll talk to you more when I get back from snowboarding! Wish me luck!